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Got the limited edition Static-X "Machine" comic book at Amoeba Records for $.50 cents.We miss you Wayne Static.
Had a nice chat with my Twin Sister.Miss her.
This journal entry will be updated regularly.I'm just sharing my large taste in music so people would try to understand me better.Some of them I'll try to be specific,others I'll indicate I don't have any of their music in my collection.In alphabetical order.

A
Adema
Akercocke(Disbanded 2012)
Alice In Chains
Arch Enemy
Arkaea(status unknown)
Ascension
Ascension Of The Watchers(status unkown)
Ashes Divide
Audioslave(Disbanded  2007)
Avatar(from Sweden)

B
Behemoth
Billy Corgan(1 solo album)
Black Light Burns
Black Sabbath
Born Of Osiris
Bush

C
Call Me No One
Cannibal Corpse
Cattle Decapitation
Cavalera Conspiracy
Chevelle
Children Of Bodom
Chris Volz(1 solo album)
City Of Fire
Clint Lowery's Hello Demons Meet Skeletons(last release 2013)
Cradle Of Filth
Crucial Fiction(status unknown)

D
Dååth
Dagoba
Dangerous New Machine(Disbanded 2013)
Dark New Day
Dave Navarro(1 solo album)
Dead By Sunrise
Deadsy
Deathstars
Deftones
Dethklok
Device(David Draiman solo)
DevilDriver
Devin Townsend
Dimmu Borgir
Disturbed
Divine Heresy
Divinity
Dream Theater
Drowning Pool

E
Earshot
Engel
Eths
Evanescence

F
Fashion Bomb
Fear And The Nervous System
Fear Factory
Feersum Ennjin(1 album)
Filter
Flaw
Fleshgod Apocalypse
Foo Fighters

G
Gavin Rossdale(1 solo album)
Gemini Syndrome
Genetic(Dallas Coyle Solo album)
Ghost B.C.
Godsmack
Gojira
Goodbye Gadget(status unknown)

H
Hustle Roses

I
Icon In Me
ICS Vortex(1 solo album)
Ill Niño
Impending Doom
In This Moment
Institute(1 album,disbanded 2006)

J
Jane's Addiction
Jeffrey Nothing(1 solo album)
Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Job For A Cowboy
Jonathan Davis(from Korn)
Julien-K

K
Kamelot
Kidneythieves
Killer Be Killed
Kittie
Korn

L
Lacuna Coil
Lamb Of God
Limp Bizkit
Linkin Park
Lordi
Love And Death(Brian "Head" Welch's 2nd band from Korn)

M
M.A.N(a.k.a. Massive Audio Nerve,disbanded 2014)
Machine Head
Marilyn Manson
Mastodon
Menace(Mitch Harris of Napalm Death solo effort)
Meshuggah
Metallica
Mnemic
Mudvayne
Mushroomhead

N
Nevermore
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana

O
Opeth
Orgy
Otep
Ozzy Osbourne

P
P.O.D.
Paula Cole
A Perfect Circle
Projected(Mix of Sevendust & Creed/Alter Bridge members)
Puddle Of Mudd
Puscifer

Q
Queens Of The Stone Age

R
Rammstein
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Rob Zombie

S
Sage 4(status unknown)
Samael
Scamp
Scar Symmetry
Scar The Martyr
Scars On Broadway
Seether
Septicflesh
Sepultura
Serj Tankian
Sevendust
Seventh Void
Slayer
Slipknot
Smashing Pumpkins
Smaxone(status unknown)
Soil
Soilwork
Soulfly
Soundgarden
Staind
Static-X(disbanded 2013)
Stereomud(disbanded 2003)
Stone Sour
Stone Temple Pilots
Straight Line Stitch
Strapping Young Lad(disbanded 2007)

T
The Dillinger Escape Plan
The Oohlas(status unknown)
The Pheromones(disbanded)
Tool
Transport League
Trivium
Type O Negative(disbanded 2010)

V
Visceroy(disbanded 2007)

W
Warrel Dane
Wayne Static(1 solo album,died 2014)
We Are The Fallen

Z
Zwan(one album,disbanded 2003)
  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
I can't keep my silence forever. 1 month ago,in September,I left my wife. She yelled at me for spending my money on an album off Itunes, said I wasn't allowed to spend anything until the bills were paid off. I was sick and tired of suffering all of the pain, stress, and suffering with her and that household. I left a note and my debit card and sneaked out of the house, walking away from it all and went to CVS.

During that time, my dad was visiting, and I was forced into taking 2 college classes I didn't want. It was either that, or getting divorced and shipped back to San Francisco; it was always that ultimatum.

Anyway, an hour or so later, dad called me, and came to me. Then my wife called with a blocked number, angry and giving me the same ultimatum. I said nothing, talked to my dad, and we went to Dennys before checking into a hotel in Sylmar. When we arrived at Dennys, I cried. I cried because I was torn apart, and am still torn apart; after everything they've done for me, but they were insane. I still cared about her, but I had enough of all the yelling, shouting, screaming, arguing, crying, whining, the smell of cancer indoors while her mom smoked inside, her chatterbox brother who doesn't know when to shut up, all of that madness.

A few days later, me and Dad were going to pickup some of my stuff, but when I went to the garage to get my guitar and amp, she followed me, yelled at me by calling me a coward, and wanted to talk to me in her parent's bedroom. When that happened, they locked my dad out. He kept banging on the door, and I went back outside to get away from them. Also,before we went back to the house, dad called the sheriff and asked for an escort, just in case it got ugly; my brother in law had weapons.

Then I went to my workplace and asked for a leave of absence while I find another store to transfer too. On my last day at work, they were waiting for me, wanting me to come back. They thought my dad kidnapped me, when I left willingly of my own free will. Dad only helped me. We left town and headed to San Francisco.

That's where I've been since, trying to fix my life. The divorce hasn't been finalized at this moment, I didn't get the rest of my stuff back, I blocked her from my social networks, and am reuniting with old friends and family members. Besides that, am still trying to transfer to another store in SF, and am planning on going back to college to classes I want to take. Something creative.

God, I sound like a hypocritical brat on a broken record. Why do I even bother posting something nobody will ever read? It feels like a waste of time to some, but I'm pouring out some (if not all) of the negative energy I've bottled up since that incident. Seems like every 6 years, a life changing event happens. In 2002, I was forced to move to San Francisco and endure high school and college. Back in 2008, me and my family were getting evicted, and she and her family took me in.

If I've left too many holes in this entry and want answers, send me a message.

Thank you all for your time. Goodbye and Goodnight.
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
Many years on this journey
All the while burning
White darkness shines upon
my soul,my shadow grows

Drowning in the sun
Ultraviolet venom eating my sins
Melting black ashes
Melting black my purity
I'm fading insane

Solar illumination healing my wounds
Yet bringing me ruin
Faith is smoldering me
Incinerating disease

Did I ask for your help?
Help me disintegrate
Are you from Heaven or Hell?
Help me deteriorate
Will you decay with me?
Now will you believe with me?

Boiling torture
Painful scorcher
Infernal horror
My life is over

Skin peeling away
Evolving,dissolving my corruption
Reborn with new purpose
A 2nd chance worth living for
Perdition won't hold me back anymore
Melting Black Syndrome
51 poem off O.B.E.

Been working on it ever since I thought of the title from my Arcana Killer story.For this one,even I don't know the true meaning of it.It's up to the reader's imagination.
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This journal entry will be updated regularly.I'm just sharing my large taste in music so people would try to understand me better.Some of them I'll try to be specific,others I'll indicate I don't have any of their music in my collection.In alphabetical order.

A
Adema
Akercocke(Disbanded 2012)
Alice In Chains
Arch Enemy
Arkaea(status unknown)
Ascension
Ascension Of The Watchers(status unkown)
Ashes Divide
Audioslave(Disbanded  2007)
Avatar(from Sweden)

B
Behemoth
Billy Corgan(1 solo album)
Black Light Burns
Black Sabbath
Born Of Osiris
Bush

C
Call Me No One
Cannibal Corpse
Cattle Decapitation
Cavalera Conspiracy
Chevelle
Children Of Bodom
Chris Volz(1 solo album)
City Of Fire
Clint Lowery's Hello Demons Meet Skeletons(last release 2013)
Cradle Of Filth
Crucial Fiction(status unknown)

D
Dååth
Dagoba
Dangerous New Machine(Disbanded 2013)
Dark New Day
Dave Navarro(1 solo album)
Dead By Sunrise
Deadsy
Deathstars
Deftones
Dethklok
Device(David Draiman solo)
DevilDriver
Devin Townsend
Dimmu Borgir
Disturbed
Divine Heresy
Divinity
Dream Theater
Drowning Pool

E
Earshot
Engel
Eths
Evanescence

F
Fashion Bomb
Fear And The Nervous System
Fear Factory
Feersum Ennjin(1 album)
Filter
Flaw
Fleshgod Apocalypse
Foo Fighters

G
Gavin Rossdale(1 solo album)
Gemini Syndrome
Genetic(Dallas Coyle Solo album)
Ghost B.C.
Godsmack
Gojira
Goodbye Gadget(status unknown)

H
Hustle Roses

I
Icon In Me
ICS Vortex(1 solo album)
Ill Niño
Impending Doom
In This Moment
Institute(1 album,disbanded 2006)

J
Jane's Addiction
Jeffrey Nothing(1 solo album)
Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Job For A Cowboy
Jonathan Davis(from Korn)
Julien-K

K
Kamelot
Kidneythieves
Killer Be Killed
Kittie
Korn

L
Lacuna Coil
Lamb Of God
Limp Bizkit
Linkin Park
Lordi
Love And Death(Brian "Head" Welch's 2nd band from Korn)

M
M.A.N(a.k.a. Massive Audio Nerve,disbanded 2014)
Machine Head
Marilyn Manson
Mastodon
Menace(Mitch Harris of Napalm Death solo effort)
Meshuggah
Metallica
Mnemic
Mudvayne
Mushroomhead

N
Nevermore
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana

O
Opeth
Orgy
Otep
Ozzy Osbourne

P
P.O.D.
Paula Cole
A Perfect Circle
Projected(Mix of Sevendust & Creed/Alter Bridge members)
Puddle Of Mudd
Puscifer

Q
Queens Of The Stone Age

R
Rammstein
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Rob Zombie

S
Sage 4(status unknown)
Samael
Scamp
Scar Symmetry
Scar The Martyr
Scars On Broadway
Seether
Septicflesh
Sepultura
Serj Tankian
Sevendust
Seventh Void
Slayer
Slipknot
Smashing Pumpkins
Smaxone(status unknown)
Soil
Soilwork
Soulfly
Soundgarden
Staind
Static-X(disbanded 2013)
Stereomud(disbanded 2003)
Stone Sour
Stone Temple Pilots
Straight Line Stitch
Strapping Young Lad(disbanded 2007)

T
The Dillinger Escape Plan
The Oohlas(status unknown)
The Pheromones(disbanded)
Tool
Transport League
Trivium
Type O Negative(disbanded 2010)

V
Visceroy(disbanded 2007)

W
Warrel Dane
Wayne Static(1 solo album,died 2014)
We Are The Fallen

Z
Zwan(one album,disbanded 2003)
  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Nothing
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing

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Hello,this is Gray.I write poems(or lyrics,whichever one),draw whatever comes to mind,and live in Saugus.Hope you enjoy what you see.
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Have a birthday llama from me ;)

Happy birthday to you on that fine December day. Hope you enjoy everything and the world around you. May all your dreams and wishes come true for just another year. Be healthy, calm and keep your inner peace :)
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